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Vincent Van Gogh in his own words

Vincent van Gogh – Self-Portrait Licensed under Public Domain via Wikimedia Commons

My knowledge of Van Gogh is sketchy to say the least. Like millions of people I’ve stood looking at his paintings in awe and wonder but my understanding of the man behind the work is limited to the facts that pretty much everyone knows (his spell in an asylum, his friendship and then conflict with Gauguin, his close relationship with his brother Theo).

I never realised that he had been deeply religious as a younger man and had aspirations for a career in the church, nor that he had worked for an art dealer in London at one time. Still less did I appreciate how relentlessly he tried to find his true destiny, the fantastically high standards he set for himself and his work and his yearning for recognition.

Fortunately Van Gogh was an inveterate letter writer. By the time of his death in 1890, he had written about one thousand letters, mainly to his brother Theo, through which the character of the man is revealed. More than 265 from more than 800 which have survived, are available in Ever Yours: The Essential Letters published by Yale University Press.

The man who emerges from these letters is clearly one who was not the easiest person to like. According to the three editors of this book, van Gogh  was “almost always convinced that he was right”,  but he understood what made people turn away from him:

Don’t imagine that I think myself perfect — or that I believe it isn’t my fault that many people find me a disagreeable character. I’m often terribly and cantankerously melancholic, irritable —yearning for sympathy as if with a kind of hunger and thirst – I become indifferent, sharp and even pour oil in the flames if I don’t get sympathy.

But neither you nor anyone else who takes the trouble to think about it will, I hope, condemn me or find me unbearable because of that. I fight against it, but that doesn’t alter my temperament. And even if I consequently have a bad side, well damn it, I have my good side as well, and can’t they take that into consideration too?

Van Gogh attributed his anti social behaviour to a feeling of nervousness when in the company of other people. In one letter he said that he found talking to people and dealing with them painful and difficult.  He suffered periods of fragile health and melancholy resulting from over work and lack of rest but viewed them as a sacrifice necessary to stimulate his creativity. In a letter to his brother written in Arles, July 29 1888, Vincent commented: “The more I become dissipated, ill, a broken pitcher, the more I too become a creative artist in that great revival of art.”

Ever YoursThe letters show his troubled, intense nature, his relentless quest to find his destiny and his frustration with the lack of recognition of his talent. Evident too is his close bond with his brother with whom he exchanged letters discussing attitudes to art and to whom he revealed his hopes, and then despair, as his friendship with Gaugin collapsed.

Ever Yours: The Essential Letters contains 265 letters, from a total of 820 that still survive.  The editors Leo Jansen, Hans Luijten and Nienke Bakker apparently spent 15 years creating a  six volume set of the correspondence which was published by the Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam in 1999.  This (shorter) edition contains historic family photographs, reproductions of some of the letters in chronological order plus sketches by the artist and a general introduction highlighting the main events of his life.

If you want a fascinating glimpse of the man and the artist, this book will deliver. And if it makes you hungry for me, there is a free online transcription of all Van Gogh’s letters at

End Notes

Ever Yours: The Essential Letters Vincent van Gogh, is published by Yale University Press

Thanks to NetGalley for providing a copy in exchange for an honest review


What do you need to know about me? 1. I'm from Wales which is one of the countries in the UK and must never be confused with England. 2. My life has always revolved around the written and spoken word. I worked as a journalist for nine years then in international corporate communications 3. My tastes in books are eclectic. I love realism and hate science fiction and science fantasy. 4. I am trying to broaden my reading horizons geographically by reading more books in translation

6 thoughts on “Vincent Van Gogh in his own words

  • I’ve been meaning to read his journal for ages. Looks like I will have to add these letters to the list now too!

    • The good thing about collections of letters is that you can read them slowly in bite size chunks

  • I loved this collection of letters – I had only ever read fragments of his letters before. Not the easiest of people, certainly, but I loved the way he ‘thinks out loud’ in his letters to his brother, how he wrestles with himself and others to create the life and art he believed in.

    • he writes with such feeling doesn’t he? the letters show how close he was to his brother, without whose support I suspect he would have degenerated at an even earlier age

  • I saw some of Van Gogh’s letters to Theo during a Royal Academy exhibition 5 or so years ago. Quite a sobering experience as the exhibits were beautiful, illuminating and painful all at once. It’s good to hear about the book – it sounds like quite a collection.

    • Wish I’d seen that. I do love seeing letters and manuscripts in the original hand of the author. The British Museum had a lovely collection years ago which included Jane Austen’s manuscripts. Her handwriting was minuscule and every centimetre of the paper seemed to have been used


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